Well, I've been doing a lot of soul-searching. Thinking a lot about my part in getting us to this point, which isn't fun...and to be honest, it's been pretty self-centering, not really interacting much with H at all, good or bad.

Did come home on Tues eve. at 10:30 pm to find both girls still awake, H down in the sauna with the boys. Girls were very upset, seems there was some kind of loud interaction between them and H...took me 'till midnight to get D7 calmed down and to sleep. H wouldn't say anything, girls didn't say much, but it does take a lot, normally to get D7 that upset (though being up that late helps!)

Anyway...H asked me a couple of days ago if I was going in to work on Fri. I said I was this week, he said he had a meeting and concert to go to, wondered if he could get a ride back with me.

I said no, since I was finishing several hrs before he was, and really just wanted to get home. H asked me again today, I gave the same answer. Later, I realized that H was probably giving me a back-handed invitation to attend the concert with him, rather than just expecting me to wait for him (why couldn't he have come out and asked?).

I thought about calling and changing my answer, but 1. I AM exhausted, and really do just want to come home tomorrow, 2. Me staying means in-laws will have the kids 'till after 10pm on my 'day off', and 3. I'm not in the mood for just pretending everything is wonderful.

Anyway, this evening, I asked H if he wanted to sit and watch something with me (for those of you new to my sitch, watching TV here is a bit like sex for the rest of you - my H doesn't really want much to do with me, but does want to sit and watch TV with me every night. I'm definately the LD for TV watching, but I've been a dutiful wife ). H answered 'I don't see any reason to do that'.

I have to say the answer surprised me a little. This is something new. And as such, seems like I should be able to pounch on it and use it, but I'm really not sure how. Maybe it's just that H finally realizes that things are not wonderful, and he is not going to be able to keep me in the box he made for me, if so, again...hmmm, what do I do with this?