WOW Jo, that is some life. Congratulations for improvements you have made.
I lived with my older brother and his wife for several years (me 12 to 16, brother 29 to 33) and he was hospitalised several times for post tramatic stress while I lived with him. He was on an air-craft carrier during WWII and Japanese komakazi pilots flew into the ship. He never talked about it or the other life threating things that happen during a war. I write this to let you know that I too saw some of the helpless behavior a person exhibits when they are depressed. In the 1950's the treatment was "electric shock therapy"
My brother was very reserved. In first grade, his older sister (mine too) had to buy his ice cream at school because he was shy. I was like that too but not to the degree he was. When I was 20 sometimes I wondered if I would be as depressed as my brother someday. I never did, but went to a selfhelp group counseling program several times because of my back injury, work limitations, and resulting marriage problems. And I am here now.
re your stay in Florida. I moved from the Philidelphia, Pennsylvania (PA) farming area to centeral Florida (Fla) in the early 1950. In PA, I played in the woods. In Fla I played in the swamp where there were lots of trees and not many, but WAY TOO MANY snakes for me. I never liked snakes and even jump when I first see a 2 foot of garden hose when I walk in the weeds. I know the feeling you spoke about when you see those little reptiles. Enough about me.
Never say sorry for the long post, Jo. It is who you were, who you are, and the building blocks to who you will be in the future.
???? ------- refused to tell the GAL -------- GAL is short for "get a life" (IE do positive things, go places, quit complaining and moping) on the DB abreviations list. Does it have another meaning to you or in the U.K.? ( one of these word usage things again. (We phone someone, you ring them)
--------- I have asked to go on his home ed trips and he says 'yes', then doesn't invite me because he's terrified. -------- Jo, this does not compute (slang for something is wrong). H's insecurities or am I typing to an "Ax Murder"? If you are an "Ax murder" you seem so sweet. (humor intended)
I went on school field trips after my back surgery. I had limited mobility for a while but no one looked at me like I was crippled or threatning.
Gotta go now (GGN), past an on-line dead line I set for my self so I get other things done around the house.
I look foward to reading you post to all, and best wishes to Tag too. Sure is difficult to want a happy R with a spouse but to have to wait so long for it to maybe happen. I guess I am not much different than most people. Give me patience and give it to me now! I want results today!
