Jo, You sure have helped me and your central theme of love carries me through these tough times. Before when my W would do or say something I'd take it personally and get mad. Now with your help and the help of counselors and others here I can better listen. I still fumble and I'm sure I will on this visit but thanks to your message of love I know my heart's in the right place. I'm going to the funeral of a former employee who passed away from cabcel at age 62. His death brings perspective to my life. I sent a copy of his obituary to W and her response was "I remember him as a very kind and gentle man. It's very sad news." See, there's kindness in her heart I just have to find a way to open her heart to me. My response was "His death sure brings perspective to my life. If only I knew then what I know now I would have lived so differently. I might grab a bite to eat on the way home so I won't be home for dinner tonight." Well, Jo, I'm in my new dark blue suit, white shirt, and pink tie. I even asked my clothier for the perfect olor combinations. My objective this visit is to be nice, be nice, be nice, and be nice. Also build my D15 her ballet display case and see her ballet performances. I'll see friends and have a ball with my dog. I haven't been home since 25Jan figuring detaching might help. Obviously I was wrong. I admire your patience and can't thank you enough for your support. Hopefully someday I can return the favor. TAG
