Yes it was like abuse all the way through. The GAL was even worse and on the 2nd interview I asked my friend to be present as a witness and the GAL was questioning me about why I went to the seaside for a weekend without telling H, and my friend started crying and saying 'will you STOP bullying her' - I had to comfort my friend rather than the other way round.
Every bad point of the M was dissected and put in front of me, all medical records were public knowledge, even my diary was court property. Our M stood no chance at the time. GAL told both of us if we got back together it would never work etc etc.
I had roughly 6 court hearings between Oct 02 and April 04, 5 GAL interviews, 3 Psychological evaluation interviews, and at least 50 attourney letters and meetings. Even our sex life was up for discussion - the judge got to read about times we had slept together after we split up.
I couldn't wait to be out of the whole situation. Now I feel happier and he's acting like he cares and like he's sorry, but as you said, I am so wary in case it's an act.
I dated mainly to see if I was still sexually attractive to men and then when I did date, I realised I was, so I quit. I got bored after 2 hours of their company and didn't think any of them were particularly interesting. I prefer celibacy in this situation as I think that sex should really be for committed relationships - so sometimes I wonder if I'm doing the right thing, but when he starts mentioning hand-fastings I think, well, that's a good sign.
