Well, the court ordered eval (to establish whether he or I had depression) was massively intense. It was 7 hours one day, 3 hours next day, half an hour day after, plus looking at home videos of us together etc. They basically wanted to know my whole life from when I was born so it took ages to tell them everything. I only got one cup of coffee all the way through, no lunch break. Everything you do is on stand, like I bought a new computer and that got mentioned too. Her report came out in Nov 03, and I had a year totally without him between June 03 and June 04 and I managed okay, I was lonely but I did other stuff. I even dated a bit but didn't like that much. I'd just got to the point where I thought, right, it's over and I took my business back etc but then he contacted me again, and I don't know, he just seems different this time, even with regard to the kids. Before he was like 'go away and just have a baby with someone else' and then, I don't know, he changed his mind and wanted me to be involved and he seems to have changed his mind about me also, so I am just trying to hang in there and see what happens.
