Great! Get your nails done. Maybe you could start walking or exercising to get that weight back off? I understand completely, I am carrying 15 more pounds than I want to be carrying, too. I need to get back to the gym...but am on doctor's orders not to go right now. Just had a hysterectomy four weeks ago.
And, yes, this is hard. Don't kid yourself. Still, you are doing great...so pat yourself on the back! Keep your chin up. You can do this!