Well, let's see. On Saturdays I volunteer at the animal shelter. I usually try to make a movie date or something with a friend on Sunday. I went out this past Saturday night with my MIL. My H called twice but I didn't answer. The next morning he didn't even ask what I had been doing. I really think he thinks I just sit around my house waiting for him to call.
I went out this yesterday with my girlfriend while she was looking at mattresses. Then went to her house for a while. I really don't have expectations of seeing him over the weekend so I am always looking for something else to do. He did ask my how the mattress shopping went but most of the time he doesn't even know what I do cuz he doesn't ask very often.
I really think I'm doing pretty good at GAL. Right now I'm a little strapped for cash or I would be doing more. I went to the beach overnight a few months back just with my dog. He didn't even know I went until I brought it up about a week later.
I guess he is really still pretty self absorbed. And I know his drinking has changed him some too. I notice he sometimes doesn't remember things I told him. I really hope he is serious about getting sober again, but I will not discuss it with him. That is all up to him.
He did call me this morning and teased me about how I didn't make him coffee before I left this morning. I just laughed and asked if I was fired. He said "very fired". It was all in fun.
I guess I am just impatient today. We haven't been apart a year yet (April), but the fact that it is coming up is bugging me a little. And I've only been DBing since July.
I don't think the GAL is the whole problem. The problem is I will cancel GAL if he calls. Although I sometimes put him off an hour or two. I guess that is a baby step for me.
I guess I'm not seeing the positives right now. But posting this does make me realize how I'm feeling and thinking.
