Well, I know I should be writing piecing stuff here, but I don't feel like I'm in the right place again. I didn't see H for 4 days even though he called but it was like he had other things to do and I was NOT a priority. I saw him last night and it was fine but just the same old stuff. Kinda like he doesn't have anything better going on so asks me to come over.
I wasn't going to go over but I missed him after 4 days so I did it anyway. I didn't say anything. I am just afraid of detaching that much. When we were together I detached so much that he had an A. Well, that isn't the only reason, but that was my part of it.
I really think I am doing great in all other areas but the detaching one. And I get tired of nothing moving ahead. I just don't know what to do today. I am in the mood to tell him we need to take a time out and he should go get himself together and leave me alone for awhile. But that isn't really what I want.
