AS I recall there was stunned silence as I flounced outta the room in tears. While it sounded like anger, it was actually coming from frustration and hurt. It wasn't an attempt to negate his need, it was an expression of my fear that he wanted something from me that I was never going to be capable of giving.
I have tried so hard to reconstruct our earliest :ahem: conversations regarding our SSM and have been unable to do so. We both can remember certain "flavors" of our interactions, but little specifics.
I think I was so entrenched in my own hurt that NOP couldn't even get to the actual topic he was heading toward. I think everytime he started with an "I am hurt" my own internal reaction was similar to "well, buddy, you want to hear about hurt..!" I think all I would hear was that he wanting something more from me, and my own list would start clacking away in the background. Kind of a "Sorry, can't hear a word of what you're saying, my own pain is screeching a bit too loudly right now."
