No wonder you feel like crying, you've got a very sad story. So do I, but maybe not as sad as yours.

You have no idea how much of a soul mate my wife was to me. OMG! Long story short: I surprised her one night by asking her to marry me. She was delighted and gleefully leaped into my lap! The next day, there was a card in the mail from her she had mailed me before I proposed. In it she wrote, "will you marry me?" OMG!!! When she turned 40, I arranged a surprise birthday party for her at the Tribecca Grill. The trade centers had just been bombed a month earlier, and it looked like the party would have to be called off, but they re-opened the area. She was feeling that all her friends had forsaken her, busy with their own lives, but they were all there that night. She told me it was the nicest thing anyone had ever done for her. It cost me one thousand dollars to do that, but I did it because I loved her so. Yet, she left me to turn 50 all by my lonesome - for someone who never did a g*d damn thing for her. I took care of her, paid her medical bills, put a roof over her head, fed her... she never made more than a few thousand dollars in her business, but I didn't marry her for money and her craft was her passion so i couldn't ask her to give it up... I was making money enough to support us. Now, she's with a man who doesn't take care of her needs that way. She has to pay her own bills... and I think sooner or later she'll understand that the NE (Non Entity) doesn't really love her and care for her... he won't even commit to her, fer cryin' out loud... yeah, so much for being the loves of their lives...

Well, anyway, harboring on all this doesn't bring the wife back, you know? We have to push all this to the side and suck it up and take it upon ourselves to do all the work. That's the way it is. That's the way it works. We have to talk to them through big smiles plastered on our faces and not let any of this heart ache show, because they gave up the relationship first. We're the only ones hanging on to it, you know? So, since it's important to only us, then it's only us to whom all the effort is upon to turn it around.