I have had those very thoughts when I see a couple or family together. I also wish my H would have just told me he wanted out instead of what he did, too.
Venting does help that is why this board is sooo good. So vent away.
Hang in there. You have made so much progress and done so well. Remember that your H wants to work on the M and has told you that. Try to put it out of your mind and move on. I know it is hard, we all struggle with it.
