I'm trying to be strong, but it's getting so very hard right now, you know?... I'm actually crying right now. I haven't cried in at least 6 days. Every time he says "ILY" or "IMY", it's killing me inside. Here I am, trying to fight the urge to say it back, and he just keeps tugging at my heart.

I know, I know. Your heart aches to touch his face and look into his eyes and tell him everything's OK. That time will come, just not yet, you just don't want to jeopardize anything right now. I honestly don't know if what I'm telling you is proper... I'm basing it on what I read... and reminding you of what worked for others in your sitch. You can do it! The idea is you don't want to start a pursuit like action because he could distance again. Just hold off a little while longer, love. Monday morning will be here soon.

I just don't get it. He wants to stay, he wants to go, he wants to stay, and now he's not sure. I'm not sure if he is still talking to OW or not. I wonder if they are, is she telling him he deserves to be happy, and saying it in a way to benefit herself? H has always been pretty decisive. Once he made up his mind, that was it. But in this case, it seems almost like a tug-of-war. He pulls for me, he pulls for her, and so on, and so on.

Let those thoughts go. They don't matter right now.

how should I act when he gets home? After all the "ILY's" and "IMY's", what if he wants an intimate embrace/ kiss when he walks in the door? I'm not sure how I feel about that.

I don't know sweetheart, I just got here myself. All I know is the books say DON'T BE ENTHUSIASTIC. What does that mean? A "warm" embrace? A "warm" kiss? I have no idea.... but judge from the results. You can't go wrong if you err on the side of mercy, I think. Start reserved, tweak it from there if the results don't jive. Maybe let him set the pace, and match his intensity. Don't rush things. It can't be you give him a "warm" hug and he sulks, and so you say to yourself, "Oh! Bad result!" and grab him and suck his face off in a passionate kiss, right? GO S-L-O-W. Remember, he has to be in the cage all comfy cozy BEFORE you close the door.