What happens now?

[ValerieA]

Again, thank you everyone, for your continued support and understanding in all of this. It is so very much appreciated, and I am so glad I came to this website.

When I last posted, I had mentioned that my H was going to pick up a movie for us to watch before he got home. Well, no such luck. He got home after midnight from his sister's. He did at least hold me in bed which hasn't happened in a while. It felt really great!

I also have been trying to better my appearance by actually putting on makeup and wearing something other than a t-shirt and sweats. For awhile, it was almost impossible to take more than a 5 minute shower with the new baby. Those of you who have children know what I mean! I'd take my QUICK shower, pull my hair up in a ponytail or bun, and throw on anything that was clean. Now that the baby's a little older and can play with some toys, I have the time to fix myself up the way my H used to like to see me. We were able to go away for Super Bowl weekend, and everyday, at least 2 or 3 times during the day, he would tell me how beautiful I looked, and I knew he meant it. But after that weekend when we returned home was when I found out that he was still talking to OW after making the "it's over" call. I'm still doing my hair, makeup, and dressing better, but the compliments stopped after that incident.

I also wrote in a previous post that he went to the mall (where OW works) to buy me a surprise gift. I guess he knew that I had thoughts running through my mind about him going there, and he said,"I didn't go to see her. I stayed upstairs the whole time. She works at the Old Navy, and I didn't go anywhere near there." He never told me where OW worked before. Now I am so tempted to go see if I could figure out who she may be. I don't believe I have enough nerve to say anything if I somehow found out who she was. I don't think I'm capable of starting any kind of scene either, and I wouldn't want to anyway. I'm just so curious to see who she might be.