You are so right, NY. I'm so confused right now, understandably so. My H says I can check up on him whenever I feel the need to. In that sense, I feel like I can believe him that he has no more to hide. But just yesterday when I was checking my email, he walked through the door and said,"What? Are you checking my phone record again?"
Is he still hiding something? Or is he getting irritated because he thinks I'm still distrustful of him?
The thought has crossed my mind that he may possibly still be making contact with OW through another means of communication. Pay phone, a friend's phone, etc. Two days ago, someone sent him a text message. He said that only 2 buddies do text messaging with him, and he walked away as he was checking it. Hmmm....could it be OW? I hope not. He has separate passwords for voicemail, online cell phone records, and text messaging. I know the first two, but not the one for texts. I don't even think these types show up on his invoice anyway. Just more info to drive me crazy!
H is at his sister's house right now helping with installing a satellite receiver. I'm feeling pretty down right now. Today was very hard to act cheery. I haven't cried today though, so that's good. H said he's going to stop and get a movie on the way home for us to watch together. We haven't done that in a long time. I'm looking forward to it. We would usually lay together and hold each other while watching a DVD. I would love sooo much for that to happen tonight. I just feel like if it doesn't happen, I'm afraid that I may begin to cry. I'll try my hardest not to.
Valerie
"I can't change the direction of the wind, but I can adjust my sails to always reach my destination." ~ author unknown
