Yes, you're right Martha, I should have stopped..but I didnt. Its hard to hold every emotion in all the time!!!

Nope, not close to that time, so cant use that as an excuse..used it a week ago...

Well, drinking wine, lifting weights and crying my eyes out...great afternoon for me!!

Listened to a song by Martina McBride which explains where I am about at:

How far do I have to go to make you understand
I wanna make this work so much it hurts, but I just can't
Keep on giving, go on living with the way things are
So I'm gonna walk away
And it's up to you to say how far

There's a chance I could change my mind
But I won't, not till you decide
What you want, what you need
Do you even care if I stay or leave
Oh, what's it gonna be...


That pretty much sums it up!!