THIS is where I need to come to vent, right? I HATE being second choice ALL the time. I HATE that H doesnt realize how much it hurts me when he makes me feel like he doesnt like spending time with me!!

Maybe its just me....I dont know. Here's what happened...H and I have plans to go out tonight with another couple. He went golfing with friend this afternoon and I texted him what time we were going tonite and where. Well, he calls a bit later and asks if they were going to cancel on us (last 2x we have made plans with other couples, we got cancelled on) anyways, so I said no. I then said, why, dont u want to go? and he says well, I was just thinking that if they cancelled I would probably just stay here and go out. NICE !!!! Why couldnt he just think, well if they cancel, W and I could just go out for while. NOPE..all about those DA## friends of his. Why cant he hang out with friends who have GF or W..OH YEA..he doesnt have any that have GF or W!!! Says a lot for his friends huh?? Im sorry, but I get sooooooooooo angry and it hurts so much!!!

Funny thing is, I thought when we moved to CO away from his single friends back home, things would get better. Who would have guessed that he would have all single friends here too!! Is that what his desire is? To be single again?? Should I tell him that 2 of his good friends have hit on me in the past year?? Wonder what he would think of that?? I bet if I asked any one of his single friends (all of them are 27+ yrs old)they would say how much they wish they had a wife as good as I am or to at least have someone to spend some time with!

I am so emotional today...wonder why?? Everything makes me want to cry or scream and yell!