Boy has this week been a "blah" week for me. I have been soooooooooo tired this week, I have had no energy, I was working out at least 2x per day and have hardly done 1 workout a day this week! Not sure if its PMS or if its because of what H said last friday. Could be a little of both...I might not think about what H said conciously, but subconsciouly it could be wearing me down. I even had a couple tears shed last night, WHILE was sitting with H...of course he didnt see me, but geez....I just feel so crummy! I sure hope I come out of this soon!!

Positives from yesterday:
1. H helped me make suppper
2. H helped me with kids when I asked.
3. H came and sat with me to watch CSI...our show.
4. H put hand on my leg while we were in bed, w/ out me doing it myself!

For some reason, thoughts of OW and time H and her spent together came into my head yesterday. I think its because I am trying to plan a surprise party for h for his birthday. Last year on his birthday, he was with OW the whole weekend! It was really the first time they spent time together. They partied with all of the people that I know here in CO that are H friends. I didnt know at the time that he was with her until a couple weeks later when I was snooping on his email. It really sucked!!! So now I am trying to plan something so that H AND I are not thinking about what he was doing last year on his birthday, but instead thinking of how lucky he is this year to be with me..