Ok, up until the past week or so, I have been giving my H a kiss or hug when he leaves in the morning. It always felt so pushed...just because he had no reaction to it and didnt put any effor into returning it. So I stopped. Well, a couple times he hesitated before he left...almost like he was waiting for me to give him a hug or kiss. So, why cant he just come and give me one? Today I was in other room when he left and he said, Im leaving and I said, ok, goodbye. I heard him fidgeting around with the door and then he came into the room where I was and pretended to get something..it was almost like he wanted me to initiate something. But I didnt. I guess I should have just said, "How bout a kiss goodbye?" But its so weird....shouldnt it just be something that comes naturally? UUGGHH!! I guess taht is what I am going to do next time...I was planning on taking step back the next couple days, just to get myself back on track, but I guess somethings I should keep doing. Maybe he always appreciated the hug and kiss goodbye, but was afraid to let me know..why? not sure about that...but I guess I will just have to keep doing it...then maybe someday he will surprise me with the initiating part!
