Ok...yesterday I woke up feeling all anxious..probably due to this trip.(He's going to MN to visit friend) Seems like he is taking lots of trips lately...all without me...

Lets see...some of the good things that have happened that show me he does want to make this work: I am less afraid to talk to him or ask him questions about what he is doing or what his plans are. He is opening up to me much more.

Wed. night I asked if we could go out to eat on Thurs and then maybe watch some TV together since he would be gone all weekend. He said yes and we did...we went out to eat to which we had a VERY good conversation about lots of things, like his plans for the weekend, when we go home in the next couple months...we talked reasonably and I told him how I felt about him coming to see my family and that I was willing to compromise...but thought it would be nice of him to come see my family. All in all...some good, calm, feeling conversation.
Then we came home and he did have lots to do to get ready for trip, but made an effort to come and sit with me every once in a while. Then he said he was going to go shoot some hoops..I asked if I could come too and he said yes.(Mental note: goal..for HIM to invite me to do these things instead of me inviting myself along) We had a good time....laughing...felt so connected. Then we came in and got ready for bed. I started kissing him..real intimately...for long time....it was so nice..like when we were first dating! His hands just caressed my body instead of going directly to my "hot spots" so that was nice too. So, I guess all in all..it was a good nite..one for H to remember and realize how happy we are.

I want to start letting him know my needs or concerns in our marriage and so have to pick one out that I want to express to him and get it ready...hmmmm..first I want to express how important it is for us to spend quality time together....try for at least 10hrs a week. We were doing so well with that and now I can tell we are falling behind on keeping our quality time up there. So, that is my goal for next week...make a list of things for us to do together and put up so H can see!