Thanks guys for the advice....it seems that when I get anxious and start thinking of what has happened in the past year and also when H takes his trip to Vegas, I get afraid. I want more, I want to see us moving forward faster, I want our M to be wonderful right NOW....I lose the patience that I really do need.
We are still moving forward, just more at H pace than at mine. But I guess thats ok as long as eventually we will get to where I want us to be.
Sometimes its so hard to give and give and give and not be getting back as much as I think I deserve. It kind of makes you wonder if maybe H is taking advantage of it and at some point will think he no longer needs to do anything for me, because I just do so much for him without getting as much in return. I also think about what if he never does start giving back what I need. Will I be able to stay in this M if that happens? I dont know..I love him to death and want so much to be with him, but I dont want to be unhappy though.
Just throwing some thoughts out there I have been having..always helps to do some journaling on here..
