I can't say that I have hated my H. I have had feelings of indifference, like I really don't care one way or the other what happens. Sometimes I get angry, too.
Sun, I am finding the more I detach and don't concern myself with H, the easier it is to just not worry about him. I can't really explain it. Maybe I am finally GAL and moving on with or without H. I know I will make it no matter what. I have backed way off. I rarely phone, text, or email him unless he does first and I am getting better at cutting it off first (beating him at his own game ). I don't bother him at home, either. Last night when I folded clothes, I could have done it in the living room where he was but I didn't, I went to our bedroom. I haven't brought up ow or R talk in looong time. I am giving him a lot of space right now. I think that may be paying off a little. I think he has noticed the pressure is off and hopefully he is noticing my 180s too. I also have very little expectations from H. Anything he does positive is a nice surprise and I don't place too much emphasis on it.
Today for example, I texted him about dinner. I used to say what I was doing then ask him if he was coming or ask what he wanted to do. Lately I just text him my plans and do not call or wait on him. Today, I just texted--pretty day taking the kids to Chuys or Willie's to eat outside. That was all. I ran an errand then went. When I got to the resteraunt he called and wanted to know which place I had decided on. When I got off the phone I noticed I had missed 2 other calls and he had left 3 vms. The first vm he actually apologized for not getting my text right away and explained why. Go figure.
I am not taking too much stock in this. Just moving on with my life.
). I don't bother him at home, either. Last night when I folded clothes, I could have done it in the living room where he was but I didn't, I went to our bedroom. I haven't brought up ow or R talk in looong time.
