OK, so last night we had a talk and he said our therapist told him to not talk to me about the OW. H goes to see him again day after tomorrow and he says he'll talk to him about me asking the questions about the OW and what he's supposed to say. Wouldn't the therapist tell him to be honest? He's lied enough about how many times he's talked to the OW. I just don't see how he can act that way and then get in the car and call the OW. H says, "it's not like I'm calling her every day or anything". Well, what a comfort. Right. It was late when we talked last night and we agreed to talk tonight when the kids went to bed. Now I'm rethinking if I want to know how often he's still talking to the OW. I feel like I'm just avoiding the inevitable. I just don't get how he can be acting the way he is with me yet still not know how he feels about the OW. I feel like it's always 1 step forward and 2 steps back. I fail to see the "exceptions" and accept them as what they are as opposed to telling myself, the other shoe will fall soon enough. It has many times so why not again? I'm just afraid I'm the fool here again believing him. He's the one who bought DB to begin with and was reading it but if he's still calling the OW, what the hell is he doing? I don't want to push him for fear I'll push him away, yet I don't want to act all loving and sweet so he'll think that he can have his cake and eat it too if ya get my drift. I'm in such limbo. How do I get past this? Help anyone?
