I had been detaching and GAL, but for some reason this week I starting questioning everything.
I have been doing a lot more things without H. I have no idea how much he talks to ow at this point (havent checked cell phone on-line in a loooong time). I really don't care that much anymore. If that is what he wants, then fine. I can't change it.
The being happy and positive around H has been harder for me. With most of the responsibilities falling on me, I am not always cheerful. I think I am acting like myself most of the time. I guess that is one thing I will work on is trying to be more happy when H is around.
I have bought new clothes and undies. Actually, H helped pickout the undies. That was a while ago before I pushed him away when my emotions were out of control. He has commented on the jeans I bought but that is about it. The way I dressed or look wasn't the problem. He always complimented me.
I guess, it is that time of the year when transfers start happening for teachers. I want to transfer out of my school (very stressful). That got me thinking, should I transfer and stay here or see if I can get back at my old school and move back to Pasadena where I have family and friends. I know I would move without him. He hated it there and that is why we moved. No chance of him following me there.
Still a little torn but will continue to detach and act happy. Sherry
