I am finally realizing that. I am doing for me and the kids. It is amazing, but I don't think about H as much. I also realize I can't change him only me.
It is getting easier to push thoughts out. I have to tell myself, is this helping, can you change it?
I see little changes in H. I have seen more of the old H (more playful with me). This week he came to bed before midnight. He had gotten into the habit of coming to bed at 1 or 2 in the morning. Two nights he actually was in bed before 11. He doesn't seem to be avoiding me, but actually hanging around me or the family more.
