H has been under the weather and mooooody. Trying really hard not to react or say anything--sucessful most of the time. Just a minute ago as I was typing on someone's thread, he came in and stared at me. I said "what?" No comment for a few seconds. Then he asked a question--nothing personal of course. I wonder what was going through his head. I am not going to try and guess or assume anything. I am finally learning that lesson.
Last night h asked "Would you freak out if I said I wanted to go for a drive?" (rewind for a minute--a month or so back--I woke up in the middle of the night and found a note on the table that he went for a ride--I freaked--that is when he met with ow was in middle of night) So, I said, no, I won't freak, go and be careful. Then I added (I know I shouldn't have but did anyway ) "Will you freak if I ask you to not call ow while you are out?" he said "no." I don't think any damage was done. He did not get mad, which he usually does when I mention ow. Then, when he came back, he actually told me what he was going to do (which he rarely does at night) before he did stuff (like I am going to shower, shave, etc.)
Feeling better. H went to the store and I am not worrying about him calling ow while out. Can't conrol him but can control me.
I like going to the gym. Wasn't sure if I would, but I do. Not as intimadating as I thought. Maybe it is just guys actually look at me and I am reminded, hey I am not that bad looking. It does boost the confidence especially when your H rarely looks at you or touches you. It probably relieves some stress too. LOL
) "Will you freak if I ask you to not call ow while you are out?" he said "no." I don't think any damage was done. He did not get mad, which he usually does when I mention ow. Then, when he came back, he actually told me what he was going to do (which he rarely does at night) before he did stuff (like I am going to shower, shave, etc.)
