Mellanie, what you say is so true and I guess that is why it is so hard.
Well, screwed up Sunday evening. So much for detaching. Don't need any comments--I know, I shouldn't have. Already beat myself up for it.
He said he was going to get a haircut, I jokingly said, you taking S. He said he doesn't need a haircut. Then he said you were gone for 6 hours yesterday (ha-- he noticed how long I was gone-LOL). Well, that just rubbed me the wrong way (right now I can blame it on raging hormones) So, I said, and did you have a knot in your stomach and worry about who I was with or talking to... Well, of course, he got mad. After he calmed down, we had a one-sided R talk (short with me trying to explain why - I know --useless)
He left for his haircut. He actually called while there and said he was next in line. Then he called said he was at the store did we need anything. He is talking, acting normal on the phone, then one of the kids say daddy's home. So while I am on the phone I look out the window and he is home. He used to do stuff like that all the time.
He comes home acting very upbeat, happy. I am not ready for this. So i just try to ignore him. He actually tries to comfort me when he saw me cry ( I was trying to hide it from him). He asked what was wrong later when I was holding my head. Said headache, he asked where and kissed it. Helped me with laundry without me asking. Helped with D's shower. Watched boston legal with me. We like it, but usually after a fight we watch tv in separate rooms.
I know I shouldn't try to figure this out. But.... What is going on??????? I did pray while he was gone. So I am going to say it was God and not guilt or that he talked to ow while gone.
