It sounds like you are making tremendous progress. What I wouldn't give to have the opportunities you are having.
I know it must be difficult to deal with all those things from the past. But that is just it, the past. We want our SO to forget about all the negative things we have done and said. Now that the shoe is on the other foot, we see how difficult a thing we asked of them.
I guess it all depends on how much you really want this. If I remember it correctly from the beginning, you have wanted this pretty damn bad. So think about that and the pain you went through and how hard you have worked. This is worth it but only if you let it be worth it.
