So here it is: I'm in Chicago visiting my parents and went to see the same psychic I did after my brother passed away. I'm extremely....frustrated? I know that I should only rely on things that are tangible but some of the things already came true, she knew a lot about the past, she repeated some stuff she told me last time but there were also a lot of changes from the previous to current reading. Basically she told me that now is the time to take things easy, invest in myself and to start figuring out what I want.
I'm at the fork, in the next 6-8 months I will decide regarding my M. If I stay with my H I will have 2 more crisis (one of them will be my affair with someone and his affair with another person) I will have a child and eventually things will even out. Supposedly we ARE ment for each other (our R is "blessed") but it's no bed of roses. If I choose to part ways (BTW: she told me that my H will NEVER D me, it will be me pulling the strings in that manner if it's my choice) I will meet someone in 2007 and get married again in Nov 2008. That M will be for life and without crisis.
She asked me a question: am I strong enough to go through all of this as pertaining to my current R with H. She gave me some things that I should do if I chose to work on the current M. She said it will ultimately be up to me to either leave him or stay. A lot of it will have to do with emotions that I will need to learn to control or let them run me down.
H called me to talk before going to bed. I asked him to fly in for a weekend and said I'll pay for the ticket. I told him that I thought it was really important for us to be together. He was surprised, said that he was hoping to catch up on his freelance and clean up the place, that it's a lot of money for short time and instead we should just go to B&B after his trip to Chicago in March (he will be staying in Chicago - hotel-oevernight for one of his shows). I did not hide that I was really disappointed I hoped he would've been spontaneous and totally up for it especially that I was paying. Oh well, I understand that he made his plans, just sad that they did not include me.
I"m planning on going shopping with my parents and then going out with my sister in law for drinks tomorro night. Sunday we are going to her B-day party (she turned 26 yesterday), Monday is V-day and I have no plans (trying to get my depressed friend from Canada to fly in - she is going through D herself) and Tuesday I'm back home. Feeling realy down because of that psychic reading (I can't believe that if it's true and I sayed with him he would cheat on me AGAIN) and the fact that my H was less than thrilled to fly in for a weekend with pretty much all expenses paid by me.
Yeah. great trip it is. Going to concentrate on spending time with my family and showing them my love because it's true - they are the only ones I can truly count on when it comes to love.
