I know I need to work hard, he knows he needs to work hard. It's been just so....hard?
We had an R talk last night -my fault. On the way home I called my friend who knows about my sitch but did not know that we started to work on M. Her sister went through the same thing as I did, her H also came back to her and a month later dropped her again. I guess that kind of put a damper on my PMA and when I walked into the house it showed.
He just got off the phone with his mother, he asked her about the picture of OW (he told me not to get pissed that he talked to her about it) and she said that when she spoke with me last she still did not see that picture. I told him that was not the point. I did not care if she ever actually got to see it - the point is she knew about her and requested the visual.
But anyway. We talked for about an hour voicing our fears and hang ups, it put uf both in bad mood but I guess it's part of the process. Now the goal is (for me at least) to act AS IF, be upbeat and carefree for the longest time before another R talk happens (if it happens). He took a day off tomorrow (I have errands to run but we will be spending majority of 3 day weekend together) so we'll be doing a lot of DBing. Wish me luck gang!
