I'm not sure if your post is for me or for BeingMe (we are both in the similar situation) but I'll take it and file it under the reference for myself. I definitelly have a lot to learn and still to go through before I'll be completely comfortable with the current situation. It's weird how I fluctuate. When I'm around and with my H I feel safe and I feel that I can start to trust him. But the moment he is on his own the trust issue and the confidence that he is really commited to work on the M is fading. He is weird when it comes to e-mails (no affectionate terms or anything, very court and carrying but that's about it), he just started to say ILY when getting off the phone....it's still early in the reconciliation phase and I think he is embarassed to show those feelings when around other people (co -workers). It's almost like he is still leaving himself a window to get out through if our R does not work out.
I'm the same way though I think. I haven't been sharing what's happening with no one but two people and this board. I continue to be rather negative when talking about H with people who know the sitch. So it will take time for both of us.
