Crushed--the bottom line is the most important thing. He might be having a little trouble letting the pics go but he is with you and he loves you. Please remember this is going to take time and lots of work. Please remember that he may not always work as hard at it as you want him to.
Please stop snooping--it is only causing you more pain. Try to act as if you believe OW is gone and there is no more reason to even talk about it. I never bring up my Hs former OW. I don't ask questions because I really don't want to know anything about it and he would probably minimize things because he doesn't want to hurt me anyway.
Trust is hard but without it you will have nothing. Just keep working at it. Keep DBing and acting as if you are feeling good about you and your life. Try not to let him kmnow when you've been crying, try to smile and be upbeat whenever you talk to him. Keep the pressure off.
There is no way he can convince you that he is trustworthy. No matter what he says you are still going to wonder. You have to come to that place on your own.
Keep reading your "bottom line" over and over--it says it all. Keep up the good work!
