H called to see if the person that was supposed to work on the house showed up. I answered the phone still teary eyed (I have been crying since seeing the folder with OW's pictures still on his comp). He asked what's wrong I said nothing, he kept asking, finally I said that I don't think I wanted to talk to him about it at this point. He gently asked me to do so anyway because he knew I was really bothered. He asked if it's something he did. I said yes, and I told him about my discovery. He was silent for a while, he admitted that he was doing a back up (AHA!) but he got distracted and did not finish. He said he doesn't know why he was doing it, he was trying to make a light out of it saying that I know him, he never throws anything away. I told him that I feel that I can't trust him still, that the sitch that we are in with him working with her is not helping and that something I have to struggle with. He told me that he hasn't talked to her in over a week, hasn't seen her for that long as well. She is a part timer and works on a different floor, he doesn't have a need to go there anymore so he is not. He told me that he has been so happy and radiant that his co-workers were surprised and asking (he did not tell anyone but his brother so far that we are working on our M again).
I had to get off the phone for a while but he called back and I just finished. I was brave and asked him to tell me about the OW. He admitted to kissing her (mid November), going out with her to Starbucks (hm...) on Sat night when I was gone on the cruise. He said at that time he already started to question if he really wanted that R, he did not see in her what he had with me and he started to value those different things (that he had with me).
I said to him that he might be done with her but does she know that...he said he doesn't even know if she was that much into him to begin with. I don't know...she was calling him a lot, she kissed him (I would hope the girl had more morals in her not to kiss someone she did not care for at least a little but then again, she was going out with a MARRIED man so that should give me an answer) - I'm not so sure.
The bottom line is: he loves me, he is happy now, he desires me, he is excited about our future together, he is looking forward to exploring the love with me. He said I will not be sorry and I will see how serious he is about all that. I asked him about MC - should we go again, he said tha if I wanted to he is game but he definitely wants to keep up with the one on one therapy as well.
