My God, I'm so sorry to read this.
Please disregard what I wrote earlier.

You have my deepest compassion and sympathy. I really am so sorry to read about your difficulty in getting through the appointment.

How did she react to see you this way? Was she crying also?

I have to say that your last post just about made me break out in tears and that is very hard to do..I'm not one to cry easily.

Your pain is palpable. I think a breather from work and perhaps a solitary vacation would do wonders for you. You really ought to consider it.

All the best,
HP