Very up and down and moody - happy or mopey or whatever. But I'm not hopelessly depressed now, and I can breathe again. Last week was really, really tough. Some weeks are like that.
I've gone from not having sex with a presumably straight wife to not having sex with a presumably lesbian wife, and still being just as hopelessly in love with her. Now if she felt the same way for me that I feel for her...
...and she's pretty clear that she doesn't, and never has. But she is loving, and caring, and can be flattered by my feelings for her as long as I don't try for sex.
