as i sit here contemplating what to write, how to update everyone on my sitch, i am at a loss. when i posted the above i was all ready to spill my story and create a massive pity party for me.
as i slowly get caught up with other's sitch tho, i wonder if i even have any issues. well wait, i have issues - there is no doubt, who doesn't, it's just are they as moutainlike i have made them in my mind or are they just molehills in reality?
perception is a funny thing...walk a mile in someone else's shoes...
so sitting here, i am trying to put my "issue" in one word. if i could possibly wrap all of my perceived problems into one word, what would it be?
resentment
yup, that is it in a nutshell. it's almost been two years since the bomb and i am harboring a ton of resentment, but keeping it all inside - and i gotta tell you, it aint pretty.
so now that i have come to an epiphany in the wee hours of the morning, let me "consider" this and come to some conclusions of what i am exactly resentful of. just saying that has brought a flood of thoughts into my head...
thought i was past all this...
ugh
see there peeps? just two days on the board and it's already done me a world of good.
