It's Been a Long Time...

[holdingon]

Hey sweetie, I'm glad you are back. I can use a helicopter pilot. Betsey and I are aboard the D train and too often I have my head out the window and get whacked by heavy emotions... today for example.

Let my H tell me again how I kept him from caring for his mother right before he died and how I never let him touch me. It's been a wonderful day.

Funny, though, he still talked about suicide. How he understood why some people leave it all here... why bring that up if he is so happy...

Oh well... I CAN'T pick up that rope and I won't.

I hope things are well for you.