Hey all things are going well. I haven't had any contact with OW and it has been very easy so far and think it will stay that way. My view of her after coming to this site have totally changed I had trouble ending it before because I didn't want to hurt her and she was a master at pulling on my heart strings and making me feel sorry for her and that I put her in this situation and how much she needed me..... Well she didn't care that I was being hurt by the A as much as "she was" She is still pissed and left me a message that she is mad about the way I ended things via internet and not in person or with a call. Oh well I knew I couldn't hear her crying over the computer so that tactic and other tactics wouldn't work.
W M and kids or going great. The guilt is still there but I'm not worrying about it or focusing on it I hope it lessens? Will it? However I have decided I'm not going to come clean with W I'm not going to put her through that pain to possibly help my torment I don't think it would anyway. I understand that being truthful and having a clean slate could be helpful to our M in the long run but I think it would just leave her with constant doubt about me that she would have to deal with throughout our M. She is the most wonderful women in the world and I just could not bear that she knew I betrayed her.
I guess there is no full proof correct way to handle this other than not getting yourself in this situation in the first place. So, I respect everyones advice and hope it is not taken that the way I'm doing things is because I disagree with the way others have handled it or suggest I do. I fully respect B for having the manhood to tell the truth because that must have been one of the hardest things you ever had to do. It shows me that you really love your W and want to be honest with her and for to have trust and faith in you. I hope she can and that your M is stronger for it.
I'm just moving forward with my W and Fam and making it the best it possibly can be. There is nothing else I can do about the bad things I did other than make sure they don't happen again. That part of my life is over and that person who wasn't me does not exsist anymore. I know it is not as easy as that, but that is the attitude I am taking.
m3m and married_three I guess you try not to be on the same posts but both your input is so helpful I hope you both continue to give me feedback and advice. If there is anything I can provide you or ?'s you want to ask me please do.
Trying and Debcb what section of the bookstore do you find the books you refered too?
