Hello all I very much appreciate the positive comments it makes me feel a little guilty since it all stems from doing such a bad thing, but I decided not to beat myself over it anymore and focus on the positive things I have going. Your support for me for ending it helps alot. You are right too that she knew my situation before the A and I never led her to beleive I would end up with her, but that didn't stop her from trying.
It has been a good start I really don't feel guilty about the ow after thinking about things and you helping me see her true colors I have no feelings at all for her anymore and having no contact should be easy. I'm going to get some books and work on myself too if this happened once I want to make sure it doesn't again, so i appreciate your suggestions on what will be helpful reading.
I feel better than I have in months I feel so much more optomistic about everything, the guilt is still there deep inside and it does burn, hopefully it will lessen but having it there will help me be and stay a better man.
M3m you said you wished you would have told her, is it because she found out from someone else? If she didn't know right now would you tell her or hope she never found out? I just can't see anything but disaster coming out of telling her, but I also know it would be disastrous if she found out from someone else. I read in some coloumn where a women told her husband some 20+ years after the A had ended, that she had an A and it ruined what was very good marriage. I guess I just worry that my M would be ruined if she found out from me or someone else so I don't want to risk it. Is that bad of me?
