I am new and new to all this forum and chat stuff so I apologize in advance if I do anything incorrectly. I've been reading threads for awhile and am not sure of all the abbrv. Anyway I need help and have no one I can talk to and am tired of being a bad person and doing bad things that could potentially ruin my life. I am married and have a wonderful wife and wonderful kids and love them very much and want to spend the rest of my life with them. However I'm being a complete fool for having an affair, it is my first one and has been off an on for a couple years it started as a friendship and turned in to what felt like love but was probably just passion and now it is just a friend with benefits type thing i guess?
I hate myself for what I'm doing and can't beleive I'm doing it and try to stop all the time but it keeps continuing. My guilt is killing me I don't want to hurt anyone and I'm potentially hurting everyone. I don't know what to do, I know I want to stop but don't know how. I haven't been addicted to anything in my life but I guess I'm addicted to sex with this other woman? Any thoughts, suggestions or anlysis of me would be welcome. I'm basically a normal nice guy who got myself into something I can't seem to handle. I've read all the stuff and can't seem to fit myself into any of the classifications or types of affairs, maybe I'm not being truthful with myself? I don't want to lose my wife and kids, for my stupidity and weakness.
