Thanks for your visit - hmmm, that might be one way to think of these OW. What sicken me is the fact that H wants them both as 'friends' even though both of them gave him the boot originally.
It sickenes me that he is over there right now 'talking' to OW1 even when his daughter is pleading for him to come stay over at our place.
I am sorely tempted to ring him to ask him if the 'talks' are still going OK?
This is of course sheer fantasy as I have my first certificate DBing principles!
I am very confused about going up to stay at his place for the first time even while he is building bridges with OW1. He evidently PREFERS to stay with her than me when in town. I suspect it could be in part a matter of simple convenience as she is right in the town centre.
H mentioned to D that he would be in town on Wednesday as he had some things to do, something to sign, so he would take her out to lunch. I wonder if he has got a new place to stay in town? I also suspect he is staying at OW1's place till Wednesday, because he kept emphasising that while tomorrow is a school holiday, it won't be for him (ie, he may be in town but not available). I am sorely tempted to ring him up at his place to see if he has returned there or not. But then I think, why confrim what I know, it is torture anyway even thinking about these things.
It is NOT as if he is really saying otherwise, all the things he says are feeble excuses to cover what he does, NOT declarations of the truth. When I asked him where he was staying the night on Saturday, he still felt guilty telling me he had 'made arrangements to stay with OW1' because he needed to talk to her, I could hear it in his voice, I could hear that he knew it was somehow wrong and sneaky. Or maybe he just knows how much this hurts me but he still can't help himself.
Can my H REALLY think that everything he has done is OK? Because we are 'legally separated', because he told me he didn't love me before doing all this? I DO think he has a conscience down there somewhere, hidden under all the other emotions he is feeling.
Does his guilty conscience make him feel that the pressure is coming from me? Will all this ever cease to be Livnlearn's fault in his mind?
I don't know.
Livnlearn
"The unexamined life is not worth living" - Socrates
