I am sorry about your day...Believe me I know what the cellphone bill does to you...It does it to me everytime too! It is just a painful reminder that H is still having an A with no signs of stopping. You did the right thing by not picking a fight. He was waiting for it, but you were strong...pat yourself on the back for that one.
I also know the feeling of being alone. It sucks and you feel the brunt of the responsibility with the kids. Sometimes I wish that daughter wasnt there, because I feel so burdened by the whole sitch, but I know in the end she will be my savior. There is a song I have posted by my desk at work by Martina McBride called "In My Daughters Eyes" I found it inspiring...Hope you do too...Here goes
In my daughters eyes I am a hero I am strong and wise and I know no fear But the truth is plain to see She was sent to rescue me I see who I wanna be In my daughters eyes
In my daughters eyes everone is equal Darkness turns to light and the world is at peace This miracle God gave to me gives me strength when I am weak I find reason to believe In my daughters eyes
And when she wraps her hand around my finger Oh it puts a smile in my heart Everything becomes a little clearer I realize what life is all about
Its hangin on when your heart has had enough Its giving more when you feel like giving up I've seen the light in my daughters eyes
In my daughters eyes I can see the future A reflection of who I am and what will be Though she'll grow and someday leave Maybe raise a family When I'm gone I hope you see how happy she made me For there I'll be in my daughters eyes
When I read those lyrics, I immediately hung it up to keep me going each day....Whether you have a son or a daughter, it still applies. Find strenght in your children through all of this...I know you need time alone too, but dig deep and find strenght in them. I know I will be doing that over the next few days too (read my new thread and you'll see why). But we are all here together...
