Thanks everyone. Last night was better and today has been better.
No email, though. I think that is what is bothering me. He used to email me all the time and now he hasn't. It makes me sad. I am not obsessing about it. It just hurts. Anyway, I guess I am giving him space. I just find it hard to believe that giving him space will make him think about me, esp with ow there at work. I still don't think he has much face to face contact or for any length of time with her. But ow is there and I am not.
Boy, I don't know what I would do if I didn't have this board.
I have tried being evasive about what I do. H won't let me. He keeps questioning, so I usually give in and tell him what I did trying to avoid conflict. Ironic though, I can't question him.
I also don't always come straight home after work with the kids either. Last week, I took the kids to a book store and we sat around and read for awhile. Yesterday we went and picked out Valentine Day's cards for school parties. The problem is I can't do this everyday or stay for any length of time. It interferes with dinner, homework, etc. And, yesterday we got home after H and he asked so where did you go. I have to pick D(4) by 4:45, so he knows if I am home later than 5ish, I went somewhere. Lately I have been doing that, just going to the store, mall, anywhere to kill time so I don't go home and go crazy wondering and waiting for him to get home. Just keeping busy but it is with the kids. On Fridays I have been taking the kids to the video store to pick out videos. He always did that or we did it as a family.
I do plan on going shopping or to the movies this weekend without the kids. I will tell him ahead of time so he can't surprise me like last weekend.
I am also going to look into a gym membership. Just not sure if we can afford it right now.
GAL is still hard, we are new to the area. But will work on it.
