Okay, need to vent.

I am tired of taking care of everything. I am 95% responsible for the kids and house. H sees me doing laundry and continues to read his book. I just want to scream. That is why I am here. I am screaming to you. My head hurts and I am so tired, but if I dont do laundry we wont have clothes to wear for next week. H won't do it, thats for sure.
Last night I am cleaning up the house, starting laundry and getting the kids ready for bed. What is H doing? Reading.
AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!

I sometimes think he has it toooo easy here. Me taking care of everything (yeah, he takes out the garbage twice a week and feeds the dog (Wahooo)) and he getting to continue R with ow. I told him a few weeks ago, if he was going to stay here and continue with ow and not work on us, he had to help me that I was stressing and going crazy.

Right now I just want to cry but know that I can't.

Way too much stress in my life. Between work, H, and other family problems; it seems like too much to deal with. Something has to give. Just found out my grandmother died. She lived in Florida, lots of family tension involved there. Not a close knit family and very dysfunctional.

Great, I am typing, tears running down my face and H comes in and asks "so who are you rooting for?" (talking about super bowl) I quickly wipe the tears away and answer. Hopefully, he didn't notice (he doesn't look at me too much anyway) or he attributed them to my grandmother. I have already cried about that today for just a sec, no long drawn out affair.
Anyway after a minute, he comes back in and we have a normal conversation.

Just feeling down, but trying to not let H see that.

Sherry