Okay, I get up and am taking a shower. My plan is to get ready and just tell H I am going out for awhile. While I am in the shower, H tells me I am going to change the oil in the van. Be back in a few. AAAAAgggggggggg. So I think okay, I will not be here when he gets home, but I have to take the kids. So a few hours later H calls, he is on his way home. Tell him okay but I am not home. He says oh... where are you. I just said out and about. That doesnt work after a few minutes of convo H asks again so where are you? I know he will get upset (and he sounds upbeat) if I don't tell him, so I tell him. He hints at having not eaten, so I said you want to meet for lunch. He says I dont know, you taking the kids to grab something. I said I haven't really thought about it yet. He says hey I am right by a starbucks, I will grab a cup of coffee you finish up what you are doing then we will grab lunch.???? I know I shouldn't have asked about lunch. Just slipped out. Sometimes things just seem so normal, I forget to be distant and make him wonder. It is hard to do that with kids involved. I usually am responsible for the kids most of the time. He seemed in good spirits. I am trying really hard to put this out of my mind and not think if he called ow while out and about this morning. I am going to be happy and positive at lunch. NO R or ow talk today. Sherry
