Quote: When and how did I become this person? This is not what I was like before this.
Trust me, I know exactly how you feel. Last April after the first mini-bomb I saw he was talking to an old girlfriend/friend and read some of her emails...I recall saying to him "I don't want to be the W that says you can't talk to someone, but I don't want you talking to her." He stopped talking to her but it didn't really do any good...she has a boyfriend or H, maybe if I wouldn't have taken her away he wouldn't have talked so much to FF/OW...but, it doesn't really matter now. Hindsight is 20/20. Amazing though how the table turned, I did not feel threatened by FF/OW at all based on the emails I saw from her but I did feel threatened by FF/EXGF because her emails were more about he deserves to be happy, the kids will be fine, mine are and I always wonder what could have happened with us if only...but don't be too hard on yourself, I try not to be, I stumbled across naked pics of other women on the computer and from that day I started snooping....I was on Dr. Phil's website and one of his articles says those who have nothing to hide, hide nothing...interesting concept huh?
Good job not mentioning OW, just like in my sitch, I am hoping she will become the needy and insecure one and I will be off GAL and happy and confident. I know that is not really DBing but Michelle also says in DR that it does make it more difficult to DB when there is an OP involved.
Have you ever tried to contact OW? I'm not suggeting you do it I'm just wondering....I am so tempted to send FF/OW an email or call her and ask her what the F do you think you will gain from this internet/EA?? But I know that will only bring me further from my goal...I'm sure if we end up divorcing I won't be able to hold myself back...but only time will tell!
Hang in there, at this point I wish not so many people knew but he did move out and you can't hide that for long...but I am a talker and I always feel the need to tell people more than I probably should...my friends and family of course think he is a total Ahole!
