Not a bad visit with in-laws. I stressed a little before they arrived. I did mess up a little. We were heading out to go eat with H's family. I asked " Have you called her?" Needless to say H got mad. He asked ' Why are you doing this, we have had a good day. I haven't done anything." I might have shut up at this point except for that last comment. So, I said " You haven't done anything, have you stopped talking to OW?" He said " You want me to come back to this?" I finally shut up. A few minutes later I said " I am going to screw up from time to time you know." H said "I know" and reached over and massaged my shoulder (we were driving to restraunt at this point). Then, get this, H said "I overreacted" (as He overreacted not me). I am so confused. If H is so concerned about me then why won't he end it with OW?
So we are eating with his family when H's aunt says to me you are wasting away and then turns to H and says why don't you feed her. AAGGGG. I wanted to scream, HE is the reason I have lost 20 pounds in 2 months. HE wont stop talking to OW. His family doesn't know. But of course I just smiled and gave some bogus answer. Good DBing, right?
Well, three days and only one small backslide. My goal is to try for five days of no OW talk or R talk. I really have to work on thought blocking. That is hard. The thoughts come then I ask a question or get emotional. Any suggestions on good thought blocking techniques. Going to try and stay positive and keep things happy at home. Have a few things planned this week for me and the kids with out H. Sherry
