I did get your and Chrushed's response yesterday. The weekend went well and things seem to be improving. Some medium steps were accomplished on Saturday, even last night showed positives. There has been some interaction where she has been seeking me out instead of vice versa. Slowly I am starting to feel more at peace.
As mentioned there are a few things that kind of need to go away, or controlled more, before I think we can take things to the next level. However, I don't see her giving those things up until she really sees their affect. With time and proper priorities she should come around. So I guess I'm at the point where I can see significant movement, but I still can't see the end of the tunnel. At this point I am still looking forward to the day when she will be open with me about her feelings and show a desire to stay with me and say, "I do love you, thanks for your patience".
So the ride continues, not near as rough, but not over yet.
