I really haven't felt like posting on here lately, however I can feel myself getting kind of appathetic, so I will do what works and get on here and make a move. Right now I feel my R is getting to a rut at mid stream. Nowhere near where I want to be, but far enough away from the beginning that I shouldn't be complaining. Here's where we're at.
W never left and is now fairly civil. However, still want's to maintain some form a buffer at times.
Likes to lavish affection on any family member, other than me.
I do not feel much love, just association, like a roommate.
Since she does not seem to be wanting to work on the problem, I find myself getting frustrated and feed up.
Today I just felt like falling off the map, without a trace.
Something needs to turn a corner soon. This whole experience is draining the life out of me. I don't see me as really better, just more tolerant and synical. Don't get me wrong, I do still feel some love for her when I'm around her, I am just almost angry that she won't settle down and work to get us out of this mess.
I don't know where to go next and I'm starting to wonder if I really care anymore. Thank goodness for the kids, if it weren't for them I'm not sure where I would be. Everyday I say I will go one more "round" for them. Perhaps I just need to hear a bit more from some of the old friends here. I have been following you Blue, you are one tough cookie, my hat is off to you. BeingMe, I hope things are picking up for you. Email me girl. Crushed, my wife needs vixen training, what's your rates?
