Working as hard on myself as I can. Right now fighting resentment to her past actions and statements. Trying to decide if I can truly love completely, someone who has put me through what she has and shows little remorse for what she has done or said to me. I know I have to continue and keep my word and do what's right for the kids, but the person who is suppose to be my best friend I don't feel close to. Some how the bad things said seem to stick very hard when not even an apology or something to prove otherwise is offered.
Today as I was coming back from a night away with some of my kids, I began dreading the rest of the father's day weekend. I suspect there will be little appreciation to me, but we'll make the trip down to FIL, at which point my W will be all hugs and kisses and happy with him. Don't get me wrong, but I suspect my D3 and S6 will be the only ones who really appreciate me tomorrow. No I don't expect much, but the kids do seem to reflect what the W generates some days.
Well that's it for tonight folks. Good luck to all the Dad's out there. My father's day gift, that I will appreciate for this weekend, will be the words of love expressed by my three youngest this weekend. Thank goodness for them.
