Sorry I've been a little MIA these days. All though there has been some positives, they seem to come with twice as many negatives. I feel my whole life and R are out of control. The changes I have been able to make have helped, however it kills me to be blamed for things I have little or no control over. Basicly, if it's bad, it's my fault. As we were sitting at dinner having an issue with one of the kids, I get the, "I don't know how much longer I can take this". As if my leaving is going to make the children behave well and all problems leave. Obviously W has a real warped conception of how single motherhood is.
Where she ever got the notion I would leave the kids just boggles me. Sometimes things seem to be in better control when I am just dealing with them on my own. However, I do know they need her alot in their lives, so I don't want to take that away. I just get tired of her wounded martyr attitude she has sometimes.
By the way, have you all seen "Shall we Dance". My MIL lent it to us. W might like it even though it might strike a cord. What about "Phone Booth"? That one could scare a few WAS back into shape. Oh, just rent them both.
